Tuesday, April 27, 2010

19,000 words... or... a birthday blog.

Well they say a picture is worth a thousand words... let's hope that's true as today's post is mainly pictures! It was a busy weekend so I will just be titling them Seinfeld style beginning with the word THE... enjoy! :D

{the sad birthday boy}


{the scenery}


{the swag}


{the cousins and aunties}


{the happy birthday boy}


{the fam and the feast}


{the organic cupcakes without organic icing}


{the candles}


{the pointer finger}


{the nose dive}


{the cake hole}


{the thief}


{the new wheels}


{the shark attack}


{the birthday breakfast}


{the birthday swing}


{the epic parental fail}


{the dragon, not volcano, ice cream}


{the sleepy birthday shark boy}


We had wonderful days, both of them! Party day and actual birthday! We love our little one year old very much and can't wait to see what this next year has in store for us!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

No more days! Happy Birthday Rupe!

April 16th 2009 a little boy was expected to make his debut into the world! 10 days, one intense labor and one absolutely beautiful epidural later... and Rupert Wesley was born! At 6:27am my beautiful 9 pound 4oz baby boy arrived on the scene.



I can't believe it has already been a year! It has just flown by! We have had so many changes to our little life, moving, job changes, buying a house! yikes! so many big steps we have taken in this past year. So to commemorate this momentous occasion here is a little love note to our precious birthday boy from his mommy and daddy...






Dear our precious baby boy... mommy and daddy love you ever so much! You are a constant joy in everything you do right from the time you wake up to when you lay your sweet head down at night. Here are some things that we love about you...
1. How exited you are to start each day: smiles, hugs and giggles greet us every morning!
2. Your pointer finger! You love to point at absolutely everything you see, I cannot wait until you can talk and tell us all the things you are pointing at!



3. Your love for all things Thomas. We love watching your face light up every time you see him and the way you dance to his theme song!
4. Your whispers. We love trying to hear what you're saying when you use your whisper voice.
5. How much you love being outside and how excited you get at the prospect of getting to go out!




6. Your love for your friends! Which at this point is pretty much everyone. You are constantly giving out hugs and kisses to our friends at church and our family.
7. The way you love your little buddy Otis Lee (cabbage patch doll), I may shed a tear the day you realize that he is not real.
8. The way you light up every time your daddy enters the room.
9. Your inquisitive nature. I love the way you inspect everything you find.
10. Your chubs! I know we sometimes get frustrated when other people say how big you are all the time, but we would not change you for the world! We love your chubs!



11. We love your love of books! We love to watch you sit in your little book corner and "read" your books.
12. We love you because you are you. You are the most special and wonderful little boy and we are so glad that you are ours! We love you Rupe-a-lupes!
There are many more reasons we love you, these are just a few... 12 to be exact, one for every month of your little life thus far... we can't wait to discover even more reasons that we love you!
Happy Birthday buddy, mommy and daddy love you!




Saturday, April 24, 2010

1 day left...


Well today I wanted to talk a bit about our time in Children's Hospital. Ack can't even believe my baby was in Children's Hospital... and now it seems so long ago. And although it was extremely traumatic for us, in the big picture it was a just a little blip compared to what the families who frequent there often have to go through.

Rupert was two weeks old and I awoke to him making a weird gasping noise. He was holding his breath in between breaths. He didn't seem panicked or in the least bit sick. We called the nurse hotline and they told us to go to emerg. We were admitted right away, as most tiny little babies are! Then the tests began. Blood work, xrays, catheters... bring it on. Rupert, Colin and I all cried together. They were our little boys first real tears. We were scared and felt absolutely helpless as the doctor's didn't really know what was going on with him. One doctor suggested that it might be his bowels were twisted and causing a blockage. He referred us on to children's hospital and Rupert and I took our first ride in an ambulance. He slept the entire way and I cried. Colin met us there and we were put in a room in emerg. Meanwhile before we left Rupert had been fitted with a nose tube to suck some the air out of his stomach which had gathered there from his labored breathing. Poor little monkey!


While we were at Children's Hospital a nurse had come in to check his vitals which is when he developed a fever. Apparently 2 week old babies are not allowed to have fevers. So they started him immediately on antibiotics and then began more tests. On the order were another catheter, more blood work and this time a lumbar puncture to rule out meningitis. Again came the tears... oh and did I mention this was our 5 year anniversary?

{Getting Rupert ready for his lumbar puncture. We gave hugs and kisses and then left the room. The nurses told us he didn't cry at all. I don't care if they told us that just to make us feel better... because it did.}


Rupert was put on an IV for his antibiotics and we got to take the nose tube out, which left a nasty red mark on his precious little face! They admitted us to a quiet little room with a single bed. They said that one of us could spend the night if the other wanted to go home. Sorry what now? Our two week old is in Children's Hospital, neither of us was going anywhere. So we shared a little single bed, not that we slept very much anyways.



Also during this time I was having a really hard time nursing Rupert. He just did not enjoy it at all! And consequently neither did I. So I was pumping, but apparently not quite enough as I developed an incredibly nasty case of mastitis. So just to recap, it's our five year wedding anniversary, our 2 week old child is in Children's Hospital with a fever and we don't know why, our baby is not eating properly and I have mastitis.... welcome to parenthood!
On day 2 or 3 of our time there his lab work came back and he had a urinary tract infection. Phew! Easily treatable. So they kept us there for 5 days so that Rupert could be on IV antibiotics for that time and then sent us home with oral antibiotics.

{Rupert after we decided that formula was the way to go! I think he likes it ;) }



I can not say enough good things about the Children's Hospital and it's staff!!!!! They are some of the kindest people we have ever met. They took amazing care of Rupert and us for that matter! They are knowledgeable and efficient and so very very sweet. Colin and I can no longer say "not today" when asked anywhere to donate money to Children's Hospital!
We also spent mother's day there, so here is a picture of Rupert and I on our first mother's day together. Rupert had a to wear a plastic barrier over his IV so that he wouldn't pull on it and then a soft fabric over top so he wouldn't scratch his face when he bonked himself!



Although it was a horrible experience to have to go through, looking back on it I am able to see how God really had his hands wrapped around us and our little boy. During the events I was like, "why God? seriously! Why do we need to go through this?" And although I know God didn't do this to us on purpose, I know He did teach us a lesson on trusting Him to take care of us in all circumstances... and that HE loves our little boy even more than we ever could. I know we still have many lessons to learn on trusting Him, as I kind of like to have control over things happening in my life... but we are learning day by day that HE is God and He has promised that He will never leave us nor forsake us and we need to rest in that promise!

Now as not leave you with sad photos of a baby in Children's Hospital, I thought I would include some fun photos of our first walk together as a family! Sooooo little a boy! Cannot even handle it!






Well today is Rupe's party day with family which will be much fun, although we will be missing some Aunties, Uncles and cousins... who we send our love to! And tomorrow is the big day! Birthday boy NUMBER 1!

Friday, April 23, 2010

2 more days...

Well I've tried to do todays post with photos from oldest to youngest, so you will see a little Benjamin Button action going on today...

Today's post was hard. I was looking at all the photos from when Rupert was such a little guy and I just had a feeling of sadness, regret and guilt. The photos today were taken mostly when I was in the depth of my post partum depression. It's hard because I don't look back on some of the photos with fond memories even though I should. I was emotionless at that time and I feel so much guilt that I wasn't everything Rupert needed me to be. And I feel sad that I missed out on precious moments that I will never get back. I know that I shouldn't feel this way and that Rupert is just fine. I know this in my head, but it's hard to connect that to my heart.

Anyways, I am so glad to be out of that dark cloud! I love Rupert so very very much and am so happy to spend each day with him! People always ask me (and sometimes tell me :D ) that I need a break from him... I don't really feel like I do! I feel like I'm making up for the lost time from when he was younger. I am enjoying the feeling of freedom I have now to just play and laugh with him... because those are things I didn't do very much when he was just a little guy. I don't want to miss another moment with him, as it feels like I have already missed so many. I can't believe I ever doubted my love for my precious little boy, because now it is overflowing! Here is the first photo of me and him after the dark veil had lifted. I will treasure it always!


{Rupert when he first learned to sit up all by himself! Who is that crazy guy in the mirror?}


{Our very jolly jumper! He spent so much time in here every day. He was a wild thing... sadly he grew out of it too fast because he was such a big guy!}


{Family photo taken by my other wonderful sister in law... man we have a talented family!}


{One of the first times Rupert rolled over! He was such a little monkey. He rolled over and over and over again for one day when he was 3 months old and then decided to stop for like a month! Silly boy! I think he has a bit of a stubborn streak... Colin says he gets this from me... not sure what he's talking about!}


{Sucking your thumb is serious business! Although he doesn't actually suck it very often. He is much more of a soother boy. I stuck his soother in his mouth the day he was born, he gagged a bit the first time, but eventually got the hang of it.}


{John Deere. Our wonderful friends from Calgary bought Rupert these cute little John Deere boots! They are so sweet! I love them. We were supposed to go see them next month, but sadly we couldn't make it work, however we are postponing until the summer, which will give us much more time together!!!!}


Rupert was the king of spit up! He would often spit up whole bottles.... crazy monkey! So we would always have to hold him for a good 20 minutes after each bottle to let his stomach settle, and even then he would usually still spit something up. So I did a lot of laundry when he was a little guy! He went through many outfits, as did we! Lucky he had so many to choose from!


{So little a boy! Now he's in his big seat and front facing! I can't believe it!}


I love this photo... even though I can see a bit of sadness still, it gives me hope that he felt the love I had for him even if I couldn't.


Our precious little family. A friend of ours took some photos of us down at White Rock. I love the beach and it was a wonderful evening spent together.


Daddy's boy. Rupert is such a daddy's boy. He is absolutely thrilled each time Colin enters the room, it is like he hasn't seen him in years! I am so excited for their relationship to grow and change. Colin is an amazingly fantastic father! He plays with Rupert often and is so supportive to me in helping out with all the work that is involved in "child rearing" haha! I love that Rupert loves his daddy so much and am completely blessed to see that love returned in Colin for his "little friend".

{Rupert's burp face}


{Oh how I miss the days when he would sleep anywhere!}








{First bath... I was so scared! He was so little and fragile and I didn't want to hurt him. So crazy to look at him like this as he now sits up in the tub and splashes like a maniac!}


{I love quiet moments like this}

This last photo is not the youngest. He is two weeks old in this picture. This was taken the night before we ended up in Children's Hospital. So it is a bitter sweet photo for me. I love how serene and peaceful we look. But I see the warm blanket on top of him and remember that I thought he felt a little warm and so I took it off of him and thought he would be fine. Everything is 20/20 in hindsight. Anyways. I still love the photo, but I put it last as tomorrow I will be talking a little bit about our time in Children's Hospital. And although it was a very sad time, it is still part of our story and informs so much of who we are today as a family. So get your tissues ready for tomorrow... but don't worry because the next day is his birthday!!!!! And it will be a happy day indeed!